Fierce and free as the wolf within me . . .

“Love wasn't forged by circumstance or changed by sorrow. It simply was. Fierce and free as the wolf within me.” ― Andrea Cremer, Bloodrose

Yes, I know... this is not the normal fierce wolf... but rather that soft baby wolf look with the soft first year fur and the unsuspecting eyes. I truly enjoyed the experience painting this with brush on the beautiful birch surface.  As you know from the progress shots I was not happy with the bright colors but yet still wanting some of the highlights bleeding through and I think I was successful for what my mind's eye and heart wanted to express.  It is available here

My blogs dropped off this week because I have had one very very sick husband. He did not have a cold, cough, fever or anything like that, but he did have salmonella, or possibly Diverticulitis.  He laid in bed thinking he was dying or wanting to die for three and half days despite my continual plea to go to the ER. by the night of the third day I gave him no choice but in the morning we were either seeing our GP or we would be in the ER. Thankfully I was able to snag the ONLY remaining appt at 9:30 in the morning. It only took a few pushes on his abdomen for Dr Lee to say... OH YES... and we left with a Cipro script and hope for feeling better.  It took about two days on the antibiotic before  he felt like he might want to eat and live again.  

I am so thankful for the support of family and friends praying to go through this with him. At the writing of this blog this morning... he is feeling so much better.  He sort of looks like the sweet puppy wolf above! 

Hoping your new year is off to a good start. I will have no problem writing 2017.. it already feels natural. 2015 and 2016 were not my favorite years. God often challenges us with things to toughen us and although I do not believe all the problems are resolved, I have found my word for this year is "ACCEPTANCE".  I had originally chosen the word TRUST, but over the past three weeks, He has whispered in my heart repeatedly, Acceptance.

Learning to accept what we have right now and being content is so important. Accepting His will over our own will is primary. Dreams take us off on "If ONLY " and then we forget to be thankful for 'WHAT IS".  This does not limit us in any way as the Lord wants us to be happy, joyful and delight in our lives.  So does the problem exist in our constant need to want more than we need?  Our society seems to have made that part of our daily life, instant gratification. Amazon is amazing with that, aren't they?   

I do not believe 'acceptance' means you roll over and do nothing.  "acceptance" is perhaps learning to embrace what has been given to you and growing with it.  God never wants us to stop growing, giving, living, loving and learning.

"Here is a trustworthy saying that deserves full acceptance: Christ Jesus came into the world to save sinners—of whom I am the worst." 1 Timothy 1:15