To be naked is to be oneself.

Early Morning Hours  © Laurie Pace 2008

Early Morning Hours  © Laurie Pace 2008

“To be naked is to be oneself.   -   To be nude is to be seen naked by others and yet not recognised for oneself.”  ― John Berger, Ways of Seeing

These quotes I come up with for the paintings I share always send me deep into thoughts.

As I seem to be passing into another 'stage' age in life... changes that are noticeable more to me than others.  There is now the possibility of discovering who I am deep inside of me... not the person I try to be to please all the people in my life.  Reading deeply into the Bible, studying more on what is real inside and not focusing on what appears on the outside. I am realizing one day if I push through this 'stage', the inside me will emerge and bloom stronger with vivid colors. 

A good friend has sent me books to read, songs to listen to on Youtube... each having hints and underlying messages for me to grasp and take to heart. Sometimes I wonder if I have been a good actress my entire life to be the good child, daughter, wife and I am questioning what was wrong with the original girl/woman that was there beneath all of it from the beginning. I now realize there were forces in place that affected me that I had no power over. Circumstances create ways to survive.  Slowly parts of me were buried in that survival mode. 

With this move, I was freed me up from much that seemed to drag me under. I do not have to play the survival game. I am free to be me. I pray for the strength to push through it all as I  begin untying the past.  Not sure how this will affect me as a whole, or how it will affect my art, but am ready for the journey. 

But those who hope in the LORD will renew their strength. They will soar on wings like eagles; they will run and not grow weary, they will walk and not be faint. Isaiah 40:31